Umm, Hello November!?!

April

May

June

July

August

September

October

And now it’s November, so that means it has been 7 months since I have posted here.

Wow!

I wish I could make a post about how I have done all kinds of things, that I got my weight down where I wanted it to be, that I’ve done an awesome job of saving money and that my house is perfectly clean.  But I can’t. 

I could go on and on all day about all the things I have not done.  But I’m not going to. 

I already have a long list of could have, should have, would have, needed to have’s in my head, spending time typing them up isn’t going to change the fact that it isn’t done.  I’ve decided I’m working on positive thinking.  If I keep dwelling on what I haven’t done, that really puts me in a not so good mood, and that doesn’t help me push forward.

I am working on getting back on track, and hopefully will be posting more here which gives me some accountability.

Oh how I wish...

I wish I had the ability to just think up something and make it come to life.  Instead I end up looking up ideas then playing with them to figure out something I can do or that works for what I want. 

An example is me looking up a scroll pattern so I can finish one of the bathroom art projects.  It isn’t like a swirly scroll should be all that hard to draw, but the idea of free handing it scares me!  What if it looks bad when I do it? 

The bathroom art projects as a whole are also another example of seeing something online and using that idea. 

I wish I could make myself do things more randomly and not in patterns or symmetrically.  Visually I *love* the look of random things, like odds and ends placed helter skelter on a shelf, but when I go to putting things on the shelf they are always in groups of two or threes or end up symmetrical or something like that.

I think I’d love a distressed finish on my coffee table, but I don’t think I would be able to do it because I afraid I’ll get wrapped up in symmetry and trying to make it all ‘match’.

I wish every now and then, that my brain worked differently, and that I could be completely creative like others are.  I just don’t know how to get it to switch gears.